I am tired. There. I said it. Admitted it. I work every other weekend at the hospital, work Monday afternoons and Tuesdays at a doctor's office, I teach childbirth education (just one more series before I graduate) and I am well into my last semester of school (I graduate May 19th). I consider myself a good wife and mother. My twins just turned 3. Even the dog and cat look at me like they haven't seen me recently.
Sunday night studying for my hematology test, the tiredness kicked it. I started doubting why on earth I do what I do ... am I nuts? Today is Tuesday, I feel like perhaps I have it under control for a minute but I am still tired.
Tomorrow, I am playing hookie :) I never do that ... I already feel guilty. My husband calls it "pre-guilt" A day just for me ... and then with my girls ... and I am actively planning a date night for next week.
John talked about how ER nurses "turn it off" ( You can read about it at http://www.disappearingjohn.blogspot.com/) ... but I think people in general and especially nurses don't turn it off at all. We are the great absorbers ... we only break down for the most part when it is convenient :) Others (patients, spouses, kids, even the dog) come first. I don't know if it is good or bad. I suspect it can be a little or a lot of both. I do know that it is just nature. It is the kind of person I am ... and part of what makes me tired.