Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Less than 3 months to go ...

I am tired. There. I said it. Admitted it. I work every other weekend at the hospital, work Monday afternoons and Tuesdays at a doctor's office, I teach childbirth education (just one more series before I graduate) and I am well into my last semester of school (I graduate May 19th). I consider myself a good wife and mother. My twins just turned 3. Even the dog and cat look at me like they haven't seen me recently.

Sunday night studying for my hematology test, the tiredness kicked it. I started doubting why on earth I do what I do ... am I nuts? Today is Tuesday, I feel like perhaps I have it under control for a minute but I am still tired.

Tomorrow, I am playing hookie :) I never do that ... I already feel guilty. My husband calls it "pre-guilt" A day just for me ... and then with my girls ... and I am actively planning a date night for next week.

John talked about how ER nurses "turn it off" ( You can read about it at http://www.disappearingjohn.blogspot.com/) ... but I think people in general and especially nurses don't turn it off at all. We are the great absorbers ... we only break down for the most part when it is convenient :) Others (patients, spouses, kids, even the dog) come first. I don't know if it is good or bad. I suspect it can be a little or a lot of both. I do know that it is just nature. It is the kind of person I am ... and part of what makes me tired.


Mother Jones RN said...

I don't know how you keep up the pace.
I hope you enjoyed your day off. Take care.


gmcountrymama said...

You really deserve a day off. All your hard work will be worth it. You are a great nurse and a great mama.

Nate said...

Woah, hot new layout. I'm totally jealous.


apgaRN said...

I'm glad you're able to admit the fatigue. Sometimes we fool ourselves into believing it's okay when it's not. Glad to hear you're taking some time for yourself. Your schedule sounds five times as busy as mine, and I thought I was tired... hang in there, and remind yourself that it will be worth it in the end!

Lainey-Paney said...

Wow. we sound a lot alike.
I'm a mom.
I'm a social worker in an ER of a Texas hospital.
I go to grad school too.

don't feel bad about taking a day off & playing hookie.
we need that every once in a while.